i miss you.

its strange.

i want to tell you.

but i can't find you.

Im back here at xanga...since My Space has been invaded by my now X Boyfriend......Im in Austin ladies and gentlemen...and Ill tell you one thing...There is nothing and I mean nothing like 6th Street on a Saturday night...haha....   So how is everyone...I havent seen you guys since gaduation...shit...its been a while...high school sucked...oh well....now for a more serious term as to why Im here.... Your phone calls make me sick....I dont want to talk to you....do you not pseak english....I thought thats what I said....Im living..and youre dying...were two worlds apart...Im in heaven youre in hell....Maybe the decision should be brought to your attention that the Valley is a succubus...taking the life from each and every one of us at night as we lay ourselves to rest....I refuse to emerge myself in the draining aura of things I have forgotten, whether it required effort ot not.....Im away...Im gone...Im non existent....I am here...you are there....I am having fun...do you know what kind of shock this is to me? DO you have any idea? Never have I established such a fun relationship with those of my same sexual orientation...this is new...and I appreciate change...I urge the chances and risks to engulf me in their sense of anxious hope and the awaiting of things yet to come....I am rewriting every single page that was written, erased or even torn from the ever so long series of volumes to the oh so tragic chronicles of this girls life...so leave me be....If you had any concept of knowing that we were meant to be you would come to understand that letting me make my own decisions for now would be positive, not to mention very opportune for the time being....so there....My Space couldnt handle it....so Xanga swallowed it whole.....